A child has no clue how it is to be our age because they haven't lived through it, whereas adults have, but they seem to slip out of that parallel universe once they're 18 (or 21 if you prefer) and they forget everything that happened as if aliens swept their memories away. When you want to party or do something crazy, they'll tell you: "Why do you rush things so much?". Honestly, I don't. But what am I supposed to do in the mean time while I'm still in this warp? Waste my time and be bored. No, I don't want to. I know I'll have a great life when I leave High School, but why can't it be great now?
I would love to go out, have a social life and meet people outside of school, but the only way it seems possible is by lying to your parents and going to open-houses (big parties) where everyone's drunk out of their minds. I mean sure that's an option, but why do we have to go through all that trouble? Why can't we be sober and do smart things for a change? (Don't get me wrong, I do like partying.)
I have all these friends I made when entering High School (and Elementary school) and they are great! They truly are! But we've changed. We have different goals, ambitions and interests. It's not something bad, but I feel like a need a fresh start. I don't want to loose these people, I just want to open up my horizons. The problem is that I'm never exposed to anything new. In school, I hang out with my friends, I do projects with my friends, I talk to my friends in class, but I never get the chance to talk to new people, people with whom I never thought I would have a bond. This is quite sad, but I can't do that much about it. So, I guess I just have to wait a year and half before being in a situation where I'm exposed to new things. Which isn't bad either.
The main consequence though is that I don't feel encouraged to be creative because as I said earlier, I am surrounded with people who don't have the same interests and goals as me. Therefore, I find it very hard to make these teenage years worth it. I want to create memories and things. Things I can think about later in life and say: "Wow! Being a teen was worth it."
Exactly how I'm feeling. For pretty much my whole life I've been trying to act my age because people are always saying don't grow up too fast, but now it's like I'm permanently 12 years old and everyone is growing up. :O
ReplyDeleteI often find myself acting like a 12 year old but thinking like an old lady or vice-versa. It's quite funny to see how contradictory we can be. :)
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